Vortex is opening!

The reason, that I am writing this blog happened a month ago. A while ago, I got an offer to work in Germany. I took it, but I had NO idea what it will mean to me. After finishing school, I spent some time in Canada, travelling around this beautiful country and then back to Slovakia (where I am from) for 3 days and then, in the end of August 08, I came to Germany.

Darmstadt (that is how the city is called) is not a huge city (not counting the students, I think around 170 000), it is not even very famous place and you cannot really meet a lot of tourists here. But there is something about this place that I started to enjoy in last few days: nothing is visible here, because there are almost no tourists, all the nice places are hidden...or they are just where they are, without a need to pay attention to them. I am talking about the places like Martinsviertel (students' quarter with all colorful houses with the special atmosphere joining the history with the young people on the bikes everywhere you look), Hundertwasser (insane buildings with lots and lots of colours, thinking that somebody just randomly dropped it there!), all the beautiful gardens, or small coffee places...Darmstadt is in the shadow of a bigger and more popular cities around: Frankfurt is just 25 minutes from here, Heidelberg 50 minutes and 45 minutes from Wiesbaden. But if somebody decides to spend some time here, there is always a lot to see!

Anyway, the fact that I can talk positively about this city is quite new. When I came, especially after my holidays in Canada, I felt like a stranger that can never feel like at home. Living in a hotel was definitely not something I enjoyed as well. Only four walls, no internet, no people to talk to, no fun, no washing mashine (!!). Only now I realised what it means to feel lonely. In the same time I thank all my friends, that were talking to me online while I was at work...they know who I mean - because of these people I did not get crazy! I guess it had to happen. I had to feel like that to see the real value of the people around me. Their patience, their positivism, love and time (in some cases it was hours and hours :-). It was not only because of the sudden change as it was, I think a big part of it was the fact, that I left in Canada a part of me. And the rest of me needed to get used to the fact, that things are going to change if I like it or not. The following question might be reasonable: Do I believe in deep feelings? Do I believe that they can be bigger than the distance between two people? I think I do. I definitely did before. But whoever tries it knows, that it requires more than you imagine. Especially when you actually care :) ! Trust is here so important, that that's basically all you have, so whoever is in the similar position, work on that! Tell the person you miss him/her! Pick up the phone and just say hi, when they don't expect it, you dont need to say all those cheesy traditional bullshit :) Anyway, however it all finishes, I must live for the presence and not from the past. And look forward the future, that will be exciting! I actually also try to believe what I write :D , cause it is so easy to doubt, but it needs a moment to believe in it as well.

The new part of my life starts soon. I am without him right now, unable to communicate and not sure if he ever will be. But I have a great friends in my computer, where I store them :) And I am moving soon. Finally getting out of the hotel room and moving to a lovely appartment in Martinsviertel with nice people and my own balcony (balconies rule!!!).

See you later, anonymous reader of my blabla :)